Volume 13: Irresponsible

I was wrong,
When you was away,
I just hoped that you were alright,
I just prayed that you would survive,
That's all,
I thought that all I needed was to hold you,
But... I was wrong!

Just holding you,
Won't make up,
For the time I left you alone,
It's impossible to make up for that,
The time I lost myself,
The time I left her alone,
I went away from her.

I am defeated,
By the helplessness of one person,
When was...,
The last time she smiled?

Volume 12: Stuck Between Waiting & Moving On

Will the end be dead or will it be the path into happiness?
Should I acelerate or do a u-turn?
Not advancing either way is hurtful,
But so is making a decision.

I wonder if I’ll never be free,
But the thought of choosing the wrong road,
And you Goin with another guy,
Could it never be me?

Take the wheel and drive me to the end,
I'm your passenger,
Hope and pray you won’t throw this love away,
I just wish that you were mine.

Volume 11: The Light That Shined In The Darkness

Your light shined into the comfort of my darkness,
Blinding the bats that have protected my heart,
Each bat slowly unhinged their jaw,
As they were blinded by your light,
As they were being bothered by the light,
They started flying elsewhere,
Creating a painful relief,
Your bittersweet lies blinded them, scared them,
Confusing me with a warm tingly sensation,
Your light took my sight, my speech, my hearing and my soul,
It became the life that I must feel,
Deep down inside I felt a scream but, this terrible feeling stopped me,
As I woke up I couldn't see that there's not much left of me,
Nothing was real but you,
At that moment your light vanished,
The bats regained their conscience,
Then marched their way back to my heart,
This time biting me harder, promising to never let another light shine into my heart,
With each bite I was brought back to the comfort of my darkness...

Thank you for making me darker.