Volume 22: Follow The Black Brick Road

Every road I go down seems to be longer than the last one,

Every new girl seems to be more of an illusion then the last one,

I have to suture up my future,

Is not that I am jaded I just hate it,

See I have been down this road too long,

It's kind of hard to explain,

Done and buried all I carried,

All my evil is reflected in smoke,

What was and what will, they're all gone,

Don't sweat it, just smoke to forget it,

To feel like you've already gone,

To the rest of, the rest of the life that you've got,

I tried to fake it, I just can't take it,

I won't waste it, I turn to face it,

I have given my love away,

To things that tore it apart,

So if you love me let me go,
And run away before I know,
My heart is just too dark to care,
I can't destroy what isn't there,

I don't care if it hurts,

I tried explaining, I'm done explaining...

Volume 21: At The Top

I'm going to have a sweet life,

Sweetest life you've ever seen,

And when it's all said and done,

Gonna go to sleep in a field of green,

She's there because I want it all,

And she was there when I won it all,

But she's scared that I have it all,

You wouldn't get far,

Even though you don't feel alright,

In-spite of the all the comforting sounds I make,

Let us blend our hearts to share our solitudes,

Nothing is pure anymore anymore but solitude,

It's hard to make sense feels as if you are sensing me through a drum,

If someone else comes you'll just sit there listening to the sound,

Honestly I'll try to avoid,

But in this field of green,

Nobody has gained or accomplished anything.

Interlude: Komm Susser Tod (Come Sweet Death)

Volume 20: Director

Life comes in Sets of choices,

You have the choice if friends, loved ones, careers, material, music... Amongst others.

When you are single, you will receive a Set of people to choose from,

When you are poor, every now and then you will have extra cash and a Set of things to choose from, such as; "Which debt should I pay first?" or "What should I buy?"

These are just 2 out of countless examples...

You are the Director of your life, limited by your producer of course

And not every Director has the privilege of has his own Special Director's Cut Edition in life,

Every choice taken in life will lead to another choice, another regret and another "What If?"

Whenever things are not as expected,

Life is not a bitch,

People are not assholes,

You simply made the wrong choice(s),

You Directed your life wrong!

Volume 19: Two Words (My Life)

One flight,
New land,
Old crush,
New love,
Sperm donor,
Bastard child,
Many issues,
No money,
Welfare checks,
Not enough,
Ambitious child,
Starts hustling,
Learned quick,
Made connections,
Crooked cop,
Favorite uncle,
More wisdom,
Longer money,
Issues hidden,
First enemies,
New drama,
Issue solved,
No drama,
Stupid teenager,
Loves shinning,
Unsaved money,
Big grinding,
Many bitches,
Still unhappy,
Business falls,
Short money,
Few bitches,
Double issues,
Leaves country,
New life,
Issues followed,
Views life,
Better understanding,
Real friends,
Better life,
No love,
Many hoes,
Hustling visas,
False hopes,
Broken hearts,
New hobby,
Goes dark,
Always surrounded,
Still lonely,
Forgot love,
Became allergic,
Takes risks,
Loves danger,
Can't find,
Others suffer,
He smiles,
Problematic child.

Volume 18: Bittersweet

I wish you were stuck up a tree,
Then you'd know it's nicer below,
Don't know any lullabies,
I Don't know how to make you mine but, I can learn,
Most of our lives we try so hard to find the time,
You suffered then, now suffer unto me,
Hear the wind whispering my name,
You can run away leaving everything behind but,
You should look back twice,
Just to be on the safe side,
No harm will come of this one little midnight kiss,
In a big, big way,
I am really small,
I get off my feet,
But I'm still distant,
I wont care for you,
Like I'm really supposed to,
There are things I'll do,
That could really hurt you,
Don't you just love goodbyes?

Volume 17: Humanity

What am I? I am myself,. This Object is myself. It's a shape of myself, a visible self. But I don't feel like I am myself. It's very strange.

Everyone has another self within them. Two figures make one individual. The one seen by others and the one's looking at them.

It's difficult to live with people if you're fastidious. You'll understand that once you discover that you're ruined.

Even if we want to warm each other, the closer we get, the more we hurt each other.

You become uninterested in others but, you hate loneliness.

Volume 16: The Guide Few Follow

There is no such thing as absolute happiness as there is nothing that is forever,
There are just happy moments,
Friends will come and go,
Relationships will all fail eventually,
Objects will get old &/or forgotten,
Your sex drive will die before you do (If you make it to such age),
Your seeds will disappoint you constantly.

Life for the most part is a routine,
Therefore enjoy all the moments you are able to get off that routine and make you smile but,
Always remember those moments as they are buried in the past and will not repeat themselves,
Let nothing stand in the way of creating new memories of your limited happiness,
I mean absolutely nothing...

...Death to all those whom dare to make you stay in the infinite routine loop of life.



Learn from your "friends" best traits as eventually either side will move on to a different path in life,
Do not love anything that cannot love you back &/or will eventually stop loving you (Love is like crack it is a first time experience that you will never re-live and you are an idiot if you choose to do so,
Make your home your castle! If you are not comfortable in your home, you will not be comfortable in the world,
Stop listening to the unnecessary and leave behind does whom don't agree.

Volume 15: Only You

The one's you've created,
Have lost their smile,
Can't seem to find their way,
Said you'd show them how,
So I played my part,
Then you played me foul,
You killed the lost ones,
And re-created a forced smile,
Put the blood on my sleeves,
Told them not to take my hand,
Then your mistakes started to repeat,
So you re-created adding more blood to your sleeves,
That I will be blamed for with your smile.

During the midst of your ignorance your seed was born,
gave him minimum powers and left him to be,
If you did this to your own child,
There no hope for humanity,
Watching as he was tortured you gave up on existence,
Left me the dirty work to me,
Left us 10 impossible laws to follow,
Who'd knew the all mighty was so hollow.

So sad you could stay forever,
Won't you guide us... Since only you could stay forever,
So sad you could stay forever,
Please come fix your mistake... Since only you could stay forever,
So sad you could stay forever,
Watching us walk towards a dead end with your hands crossed... But only you could stay forever.